I remember that one time that I snap chatted inhalexhal3 and she called me pretty 😳☺️☺️😳
Too anxious to eat
Too anxious to sleep.
Just too damn anxious
I miss you quite terribly
I guess I eat meat again…
It’s been a solid 4-5 years oh well~~
I’m doing exactly what I promised I wouldn’t and becoming the person I despise the most…
My morning sucked. I woke up with my mouth hurting and feeling like such poop because getting wisdom teeth sucks. I was so excited to see my friend and to eat soup. I hadn’t seen her in a while. my friend said she was on her way and while later I got a phone call from Ben. We err chatting and then he said “janette open your door.” I thought there was going to be a box or something..nope. it was him. Ben surprised me by standing on my porch with flowers and Arizona ☺️ He left South Carolina for the weekend for our sixth month anniversary. asdfghkl it felt so surreal and I just wasn’t expecting it. ohmygod. it was the best surprise ever. How the fuck do you even top that?! Haha. Ben, I’m sure you’re reading this. thank you. you’re so fucking great and I love you. happy six months.
Words from eliott:”10/10 marry him” ahaha
Please, please don’t talk to me like that. You’re not helping.
This dreams aren’t helping. You’re words/ actions are making it worse. I know, I shouldn’t be dealing with this, but just help me stay posi. all I need is that. Don’t be sorry… don’t apologize for me being so fucked up. I feel shitty enough. I wish I could numb this feeling like I always do. Fuck.
I’m trying so hard.
And everything has been bothering me. everything has been getting to me. and so the cycle begins all over again.
After that hour or two,my eyes have been hurting,my head has been thudding.
I’ve just been laying in bed. I think I napped for ten minutes?
Fuck you for being an ass.
Fuck you for not being a friend.
You two suck! honestly,you guys are horrible.
I just want things to be back to the way they were. I can’t take this.
I just don’t know now I feel about this any more… I know. I have the worst timing for things but I just don’t know. I’m sorry. I’m so sorry.
I’m probably just over reacting
Seriously though. I feel like shit (mentally and physically)
I can’t wait to go back home to see Cute Girl. I seriously miss her so much and life sucks without her :/
I MISS YOU TOO!!